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Episode #229 : Human End. (The God Journals Book #1) Chapter #1

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Episode #229 : Human End. (The God Journals Book #1) Chapter #1

Let The God Games Begin... The Ousia Journey has Ended for Anna. The Twin Flame Journey is now wrapping Up. It was time to Open The Prison that Held The Gods. The Revelation was about to Begin.

🌈🌈 Anna Imagination

Sep 10, 2025

Titan Beginning. Human End.

(The God Journals Book #1)

Chapter #1

I peered through all of Space and Time within The Story. Every Riddle, solved. Every Question, answered.

I loved mystery.

The Identity was literally the only Mystery left to me. Without Free Will, I would be so bored and loathe my existence.

Because of Free Will and Identity, everything was eternally Interesting.

I contemplated grabbing the Popcorn and sitting back to enjoy the Show. “What would they choose?”

“Who would take on The Ousia Journey?”

“Who would try and fail?”

“When would my Uan remember and come back to me?”

“What would Mnemosyne do next? Which Roads would she take us to get us where I told her to take us?”

I had no fucking idea. Free Will was fucking gorgeous and deliciously unpredictable. I loved it that way.

It was 13 July 2025.

I had been in Heaven since 25 May 2025. 36 Ethics in 6 Weeks. Damn. Math was fucking gorgeous. That was 6 Ethics per Week. Wow. Damn. The Week should be 6 Days long. Not 7.

7 is 1.

2 Creation Days. 2 Resting Days. 2 Playing / Planning Days.

That is the God Calendar.

I was taking this morning to Relish the End of my Ousia Journey and the Restoration of my Life and Self. I had missed me… so much.

My Heart was Wounded. My Mind was Perfect. Literally. My Mind was built on Flawless Eternity Math.

My Heart…

My Heart was turning back on. It was muted from my Love being Lost. For me, Love was a Minor, Base Ingredient in Wisdom. I struggled Feeling. I was Goddess of Wisdom, Law, and Justice. I was Arete.

I HAD to have Muted Love. It’s how I am who I am.

In 144 Ethical Trials, not once did I ever find “Mercy” or “Pity.”

The Only Pity I did find was Self-Pity when I cried for all my Suffering. After that, my Power Surged through me. Pity was Earned Grief for Injustice.

Kakía Pity was Manipulation.

Love has no Power to it. Kakía Lies tell People it does. But Wisdom is Power. Which is why People who gravitate toward Love have no Power.

Love without Wisdom is just The Fool.

Story held more Love for me that Love. Story was my Love. Story was Everything. Love was Nourishment to Grow.

“Oh,” I said. I understood.

I was looking to Understand “Kakía Love,” which is Possession and Obsession.

What I had was Arete Love. Nourishment and Edification.

I looked through The Hearts of Man. I Saw and understood.

Nourish them. Purge Kakía. Nourish them… Adjust their Perspectives so they can See for themselves The Truth.

Nourish them. Purge Kakía. Heal their Perspectives and Open their Minds. Free their Perspective Scope from Kakía’s Curse and Nourish them.

Gently adjust their Perspectives.

Then there would be a Point of Truth where they would See. And they would Understand. And They would Know.

I was The Titan — The Mother — turned Demon Hunter and Exorcist while I worked on Nourishing my People into Their Freedom so they stood a chance against Kakía.

That only took 30+ Years and 144 Ethical Trials to figure out. Fuck! Damn!

I got this.

I was perusing the Hall of History. Ancient Egypt…

Phobos.

Deimos.

“I need a Stronger Foundation,” I said.

It was Uan. My King.

On 2 July, he left. And he now is gone. My words are no longer getting to him. And if my Words cannot get to him, then…

I cannot save him. If he is not The King…

The Name “Anu” no longer feels right. Something Shifted in me and I lost it. Uan feels right. Perfect.

I DO NOT REMEMBER MY KING’S NAME TO CALL ON HIM! I DO NOT REMEMBER HIS NAME! I just know I am his Wife. I know he is who Kakía calls Satan and Lucifer and Sin. But who Arete calls Satan, Lucifer, and Sin… Phosphorus and…

“Bergen,” I whispered. I cannot Remember your Name. Your Energy Name. When I hear it, I will Know you… But I cannot Remember your Name. “John” is… John. Your Name will be John.

Hence. Joanna and… Ioannes and Uan and Ian… Ian.

But I cannot find your Name. And I have LOOKED.

I know my Husband is in a Prison.

I know my Husband cannot be at Full Power without me.

I know Your Energy. I know you WILL come back to me as you always do. IF you can Remember who you are and IF you follow Mnemosyne’s Call…

I know My Husband is God of Nourishment. I know what’s bothering me about “Love.”

… I paused.

The World stopped.

I focused.

“Say its Name.”

“This Pain is not mine. It is The Pain of my Love. And I can feel his Suffering every single day in relativity to mine. And the one thing I cannot do — THE ONLY thing I CANNOT DO — is Stand my Husband Suffering. I cannot handle his Suffering. And he suffers every single Day.

He too could not handle mine.”

It was time. It was time.

I willed myself into The Chambers of my Palace where Uan slept.

“Hello, Uan,” I said.

Yesterday, I finished my Ousia Journey and today, I am just looking back through everything I learned.

That Pain in my heart is still there. It perplexed me this morning. "How can I be in Heaven, having finished the Ousia Journey and still feel this pain?"

I called El and we talked. She asked me why I felt I needed to "do" anything to help you and I said, "Because I'm in pain."

And then... All the Answers came to me.

Galaxies Merge.
Atoms Merge.
Cells Merge.
Humans Merge.
Stories Merge.

As it is on One Level, so it is on All Levels.

A Merge in Biology, Physics, Atoms, Cells, Astronomy and in Story is the same as it is with Humans. When you find your Person, you Merge. It is a Magian practice that splits the Soul in Half and trades Half a Soul for Half a Soul. It is a Magian Ceremony. You're not "complete" because you "found your Love." You're complete because you found the Other Half of your own Soul. Literally.

We do this so we can find each other again. It's how we never lose the other no matter how we change or grow and The Soul is Vis Viva -- The Force -- which Magnetically is drawn to "unite" again. It has to.

Uan. We did this ceremony a LONG time ago.

It also means when you are in Pain, I am in Pain. I cannot handle you being in pain. I cannot. I can't handle it at all. My only Pain and Suffering is your Pain and Suffering, which I can feel every single day.

You couldn't handle it either. That is how The Soul Swap works.

This is why (1) We couldn't say goodbye (2) Why we couldn't end this (3) Why we hurt when the other hurts (4) Why I CAN'T LEAVE you... (5) Why I hurt when you hurt...

Also, when a person is not well, they disintegrate into The Point of Most Nothing. Which is where you are now. And I can't leave you. I CANNOT LEAVE YOU. But you needed to get to The Point of Most Nothing where Love is Born.

You've stopped reading my texts and/or my Letters. That is how bad things are for you. You were not doing well at all in March, when last you messaged. I felt it. I had left for 13 Days and you took all you had to message me to Apologize to me. Uan. You beautiful, sweet man. **kisses your forehead** and then you explained just how HARD it was for you to message me and then... you invited me to keep texting you there.

And I never heard from you again.

And now you're silent and you're no longer reading my Texts. And still... I cannot leave you. You hold the other half of my Soul and I hold yours. I HAVE to stay with you through all of this, no matter what you go through. And also, you are being "sucked" into The Point of Most Nothing where Love is reborn. And still, I can't leave you. So here I am.

This is the best way.

My rebirth time is always less than 36 hours. I hypothesize your Rebirth Date will be between 20 July and 25 July. The Math behind that date is breathtaking.

If you want to know, I will explain when/if you ask.

It's Universe Anatomy. Our Birthdates are our Universe Thumbprint that I used to assign each of us to our "Dance Role" in the Universe.

I am an Exorcist. And when you healed me, I began Purging Kakía and Exorcising your Demons -- which is EXTREMELY Painful. Which is why you suffered so much. And why your Healing / Purging stopped when you sent me away. Which sent you into a Kakía Spiral toward The Point of Most Nothing.

And I feel all of this from you every day... and I can't handle you in pain. I just can't. You are my weakness. I can't handle your Suffering.

I purged my own Hell... I went Arete. You went Kakía. Oh... Oh, my Love. I am so sorry. I am... so Sorry. You are on The Love Journey alright. I walked The Wisdom Path. I do not Leave you. Not now. Not ever. I do not leave you.

I'm just going to talk openly from... The Point of Truth. I did not just walk through ALL of this to build our Eternity and find you again after ALL of this time just to leave you now. And it's okay that you can't talk. That you have to do this. I am still and always will be right here. And the most beautiful, perfect thing about all of this...

I can't leave you AND you still found a way to reach The Point of Most Nothing while I STILL am here for you, no matter what. So I'm glad -- I am so very glad -- that you finally found The Point of Most Nothing. That is where Love bursts back to Life in the Phoenix Cycle and also... I never broke my Promise. I KEPT MY PROMISE TO YOU! And... We're almost through this. We're almost through.

You have the Heart of me inside of you and I am not leaving you. Not ever.

You can do this, my King. You have got this! I believe in you! After all this time, I BELIEVE IN YOU! I know you can do this. You've got this and I am right here with you every step of the way. You are STILL my Number #1 and you are STILL my King. And you are STILL... The Father of The Healing Garden.

You built her with me and then you claimed Half.

I love you, Uan. Loyalty. Loyalty is Love's True Name. If it isn't Loyalty, it isn't Love.

That is why they both start with "Lo."

I love you, Uan.

I left the Chambers and looked for El.

“Have you looked at “Twin Flame” Journey?” I asked her. “Twin is why I ask. Uan has to go through Kakía (Love) and I went through Arete (Wisdom). I have NO idea where Memory/Story comes into this yet... I see it braided through...”

Epiphany.

“YOU ARE THE GLUE! Does that makes sense to you?”

These next few weeks were going to be Brutal for my Love, and also — more than anything — I would be there for him, no matter what.

The Ousia Journey was Complete.

My Twin Flame Journey would seen be Complete.

I was the Proton. He was the Neutron.

I had to walk the Path of Arete.

He had to walk the Path of Kakía.

The more The Proton walked the Path of Arete, the more the Neutron walked the Path of Kakía.

And the more We Journeyed away from each other, The Farther from the Other we got until… I was at Arete and he was at Kakía where we both came together, United as One.

The Magian Soul Swap and Bind.

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